It has been some time since I last blogged. A lot of that had to do with my engrossment of social media. I would check FaceBook, Twitter, Instagram, Snapchat, etc on a daily basis. Without realizing I would spend a few hours idling by looking at people’s “best versions” of their lives and compare it to bland mundane version of myself.
Also, I would realize that it was time wasted, that I could have done something more productive, or, at the very least, more entertaining. That would fuel my self-loathing and despondency and I would escape further into my shell and just consume more media and blog nothing.
Sometime in March of 2018, I decided to podcast again. I was feeling the urge to output something and recording my stream of conscious ramblings for 10-15 minutes a week seem to be the least I could do. Writing involves more time and thought and I just wasn’t ready to do that if I could get the same point across in a short quick rambling and then post it online, to the ether.
Since March, I’ve been pretty consistent with my weekly recordings and am now feeling the urge to blog again. The thought here is that maybe some thoughts that I rambled on could be better fleshed out in text form, especially since I can look at it, edit it, proofread it, etc.,
So this here is my new blog entry in more than a year. Hopefully I can keep this momentum going and see what may come of this.
I recently got myself an iPad and wireless keyboard as my Xmas gift and figured why not test it out as a supplement to my computer when I don’t have it with me. Thus far I’m enjoying the keyboard that I got based on a review I read. It’s a great little keyboard made by Microsoft and feels almost as good as a laptop keyboard. More importantly it was extremely affordable ($39.99).
Currently I’m using the WordPress app to type this away and am also testing out the split screen feature to test how well I can multitask in comparison to a fully functional computer.
Thus far multitasking between Safari and the WP app was pretty seamless, though it’s still more convenient to do these things on a computer. Also it seems to take forever to upload photos on the post via the app.
After waiting for what seemed like an extremely long time I decided to just log on to WordPress via Safari like I would on a regular computer and was able to post a picture with ease. This was definitely eye-opening. It seems the web, even if it’s mobile web, is still more functional than web apps despite the arguments to the contrary.
All in all, not a bad first start with this experiment. Tune in when I start using the Stylus I bought by 53, as a supplement to a pencil and drawing pad. I’m trying to get back to my old hobby of drawing and may spur on an old childhood dream to become a cartoonist (though I still feel that is far fetch).
It’s been quite some time since last I wrote. It’s also been some time since I last even recorded a podcast for that matter. I’ve been half-assing both in such a manner that I’ve lost all motivation to do either. I figured there are people that are much better at both and what could I possibly contribute to the ether that would be worth reading or listening to?
Nonetheless, here I am back again. I can’t shake the scratch. I’ve done a lot of reading, listening and watching media content that, in my opinion, I don’t ever see myself ever being able to produce with my meager skills. Despite that realization I’m still compelled to connect some words together in a stream of conscious manner and post to the very same ether that has all this great quality of content.
Part of the reason is psychological. It gives me some kind of purpose in life. It also helps me combat the loneliness and boredom that I’m faced on my days off. I’m 2 years or more single at this point. I only have human interaction while at work and when I’m off from work I escape into the world of fiction via media content. For a good long while this was a good solution. I was at peace. Life was good. But as the time has gone by, I’ve started to feel incomplete and lacking something.
Anyway, so here I am typing my current feelings and converting them into text form. I’m currently not at my place of residence and don’t have access to my mic so this seemed the simplest option between blogging and podcasting. Truthfully though, if I’m being honest with myself, I would probably still choose this option.
The few months that I started podcasting again, I realized that I just don’t have the chops for it. It was more of a curiosity and an idle hobby than anything I would consistently do. Once I hit a roadblock and went on hiatus it just became harder to get back to it as the weeks went by.
Also with writing, I can erase any hiccups I initially put down. I can edit down my drafts with quicker ease than I would ever be able do with audio. Uhms, like you knows and other disfluencies don’t exist in the written form unless you intentionally leave them in.
So here we are, about 400 words in now and I’m feeling more at ease and better. This has been therapeutic after all. I’m sure there will be more random stream of conscious blather making its way on here some time soon. As this itch to do something, however inconsequential, will persist in the recesses of my being. Until the next urge.